Time of our lives

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right, I hope you had the time of your life...

This isn't a cheery note. This is my next installment of life. I know I wrote a quick little thing almost 2 weeks ago when I was stirring with the emotions of her death but time has passed now. Now while I still feel her loss, I am trying to be there emotionally for those who have lost someone close. This whole experience has really just shown me that so many of us take life for granted. I can't believe that while my friends are moving on with their lives in joy, this is also the time that death can surround us. I can't imagine having to be the shoulder to cry on for my friends as their parents pass. Sadly enough, I know if my father were to pass away, I am not sure how I would feel. I don't remember the last time I said "I love you" to him... not even as a kid. I mean, I'm sure I said it when I was young but remembering as far back as 11-12, I know that I didn't love him. people would think that i am in shock but in reality, i wouldn't know what to think. I know i'll be devastated if it were anyone else in my family and i would certainly seem dead to the world around me. i go to people when i need advice but when i am seriously hurt, i just need to close off. some people may not understand that but i wouldn't expect them to

Life really can change in the blink of an eye

I just really don't understand people. Violence just seems so unnecessary. There I was sitting eating dinner with a few old friends when one gets this god awful news. Domestic violence... but what exactly happened? Of course we ended things right then and there. She was off to be by her husband's side who must be completely hysterical. Why do these things happen? The last time we saw these two people was such a joyous occasion. Everyone was laughing and seemed genuinely happy. What makes a person, who days earlier was smiling and in great company, pick up a gun?

Day 1

I may never write on this blog again but I believe that I'll be able to express myself here like no where else. Some topics may be silly (actually most probably will), some may be touching, some may be cliche but all will be me.